my hideaway by dennoko-P

i have been very attached to this song over the past few days since it came out.

it makes me feel very emotional and it is soothing at the same time. it's a balm for my heart that is working against more than a decade worth of self destructive habits and thinking patterns. the simple, steady beat of a kitchen knife cutting onions and carrots is familiar and comforting as someone who cooks all of my meals i eat. the kitchen is a "usual hideaway" where we reclaim our confidence in ourself. slowly, more kitchen sounds and instruments join into the rhythm and the voice sings a little stronger, rebuilding the self love that comes with claiming all of the broken pieces that make up a person. we claim all of the shoddily cut uneven perfect ingredients, we claim all of the clumsy burn marks from small mistakes, we have our private moment where everything is quiet and the rest of the world can be ignored in the simple rhythm and familiar patterns of cooking. the rush of water from the sink, the boiling pots, the turning of stove dials and opening of cabinets are our backdrop to sing that we can embrace and love our broken selves and nourish our bodies with food. "more than anyone else, i cherish myself, because even my uneven fragments are all dear to me, no one can take this time of mine away. even the clumsy scorch marks are me, even the collapsed shapes are me, all of this and that is just like me."